MATCH MATCH MATCH

OMG - I am matched!!!!!  BM is due in less than one month - eek.  Reality is slapping me in the face and pocketbook.  I have the contract and am horrified at the lop-sidedness and expense.  This is a lot of money, with no guarantees.  What an emotional roller coaster.

I did not want to post for fear of another "match" falling through.  Will this be it? Will it actually work?  I think I should write less because I still don't have a signed contract.

Moving toward Adoption

Adoption.  Onward to the next thing - Adoption.  My stats don't look so good, so I need to meet with a baby buying consultant.  Oh, I mean adoption consultant.  Why does this whole process just seem like buying a baby, but no one wants to actually say that.  There are adoption fees, but everyone is making money (except for the adoptive parents).

It is difficult to imagine life with a baby.  It is difficult to imagine life without my own child.