MATCH MATCH MATCH

OMG - I am matched!!!!!  BM is due in less than one month - eek.  Reality is slapping me in the face and pocketbook.  I have the contract and am horrified at the lop-sidedness and expense.  This is a lot of money, with no guarantees.  What an emotional roller coaster.

I did not want to post for fear of another "match" falling through.  Will this be it? Will it actually work?  I think I should write less because I still don't have a signed contract.

Moving toward Adoption

Adoption.  Onward to the next thing - Adoption.  My stats don't look so good, so I need to meet with a baby buying consultant.  Oh, I mean adoption consultant.  Why does this whole process just seem like buying a baby, but no one wants to actually say that.  There are adoption fees, but everyone is making money (except for the adoptive parents).

It is difficult to imagine life with a baby.  It is difficult to imagine life without my own child.

It has been a while - New Tact

It has been over 2 years since I last posted. My head was in the sand for a long time.  I've given up on the being pregnant thing.  I though about using donor egg, but decided I couldn't deal with more $ and disappointment.  I have finally come around to the adoption route.  I have completed my home study and am just waiting for a child.  Unfortunately, the wait has been long and I need to do something to kick start the process.  Most likely, I will need the services of a consultant to help match me.

Since I am single, I'm not at the top of most birth mother's ideal of an adoptive parent scenario.

I'm not trying to say anything weird with this picture.  I just took the picture in my backyard, because it is a large spider (orb spider, I think).  I just thought the blog could use some visuals.