9/17/2007

Sad, Sad

So, my lazy ass embryos did not latch on and grow.  What kind of ungrateful embryo brats did I create?  I have not even shed a tear about the "negative test" until my group meeting on Monday night (that is 3 days after my beta).  Why didn't I cry?  Am I too devastated to cry?  I can't afford to keep doing this.  I would like to keep trying, but the money is overwhelming.

When do I stop?

Do I have an option, or will I be kicked out of the program? I have to face the reality that I will never be a mother.  That I will never be pregnant, again.  That I will never hold my new born infant in my arms.  That I have spent $70,000 for a lot of heart ache and grief.

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