3/19/2008

Bracing for the Call

I had my beta and am still waiting for the results. I know what the call will say, so I am bracing myself. I took not one, but two HPTs this morning. One $Tree and the other Clear Blue digital. Both were very clear. Both broke my heart.

I'm not doing the afternoon progesterone because it won't be needed.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

My heart aches with you as I have gone through every emotion you wrote in your previous logs. Having gone through two IVFs, the sense of hopelessness and uncertainty was also at times unbearable in my life. I'm not writing to tell you that my story ended happily and I now have a beautiful bouncing baby-- I don't, but I'm writing just to let you know that you are not alone and there is someone out there who is saying a prayer for you to heal from this ordeal.

maybe42 said...

I'm sure I will heal, but there will always be a scar from my fertility failures. I started this journey in 2006, and in 2008 I have just heart ache, wasting of a huge sum of money, and a body that has gone through too much (and is too heavy).

I'm sorry that you also have dealt with difficult times. I appreciate your comment and support.